I'm Honest To A Fault, It's Just Who I Am

Better As A Memory - Kenny Chesney

I move on like a sinners prayer
I let 'em go like a levee breaks
walk away as if I don't care
learn to shoulder my mistakes
I'm built to fade like your favorite song
gettin' reckless when there's no need
laugh as your stories ramble on
break my heart but it won't bleed
my only friends are pirates, it's just who I am
I'm better as a memory than as your man.

I'm never sure when the truth won't do
I'm pretty good on a lonely night
I move on the way a storm blows through
I never stay, but then again, I might
I struggle sometimes to find the words
always sure until I doubt
walk a line until it blurs
build walls too high to climb out
but I'm honest to a fault, it's just who I am
I'm better as a memory than as your man

I see you leanin', you're bound to fall
I don't want to be that mistake
I'm just a dreamer, nothing more
you should know it before it gets too late

cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel
you never know where they're gonna land
first you're spinning, then you're standing still
left holding a losin' hand
but one day you're gonna find someone
right away, you'll know it's true
that all of your seeking's done
it was just a part of the passing through
right there in that moment
you'll finally understand
that I was better as a memory than as your man

better as a memory than as your man

This. Is. You.

I had a particular friend email this video to me and left me with 3 words.

This. Is. You.

Am I the only one that finds this commical?

Collide - Rachael Yamagata

Live Version


Recorded Version


I’ll fascinate you for awhile
My hands in wait to please, so well
When I wake to realize, all I’d done
I’ll be breaking strings
And all you’re gonna feel
Is undone

I will not stay if you ask me to stay
Do not ask me to stay because I will not stay

Why do we always collide
Stuck onto different sides

Your resignation, don’t simply file
Its not always about your love
What I wake up to find
All I’ve done is unkind
All you’re gonna feel
Is untied
Untied

Why do we always collide
Stuck onto different sides

Why do we always collide
Stuck onto different sides

Why do we always collide
Stuck on two different sides

Why do we all
Why do we all

Between The Minds

I've never been the one to shout because I listen. I don't like to raise my voice. And maybe I should learn to lose my inhibition, and let my feelings make some noise...

Florence &The Machine - Drumming Song

Dear Mr.

There's a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell



There's a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

There's a drumming noise inside my head
That throws me to the ground
I swear that you should hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

I ran to a tower where the church bells chime
I hoped that they would clear my mind
They left a ringing in my ear
But that drum's still beating loud and clear

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

I run to the river and dive straight in
I pray that the water will drown out the din

But as the water fills my mouth
It couldn't wash the echoes out
But as the water fills my mouth
It couldn't wash the echoes out

I swallow the sound and it swallows me whole
Till there's nothing left inside my soul
As empty as that beating drum
But the sound has just begun

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

There's a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

There's a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an all mighty sound

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell

As I move my feet towards your body
I can hear this beat it fills my head up
And gets louder and louder
It fills my head up and gets louder and louder

Anya Marina "All The Same To Me" live at Paste

I won't run
When the sky turns to flame
And I sure won't budge
When the earth does shake
When the flood comes up
I will dance in the rain
'Cause it's all the same to me

Somebody care
Somebody care
Somebody care for me
Somebody care
Somebody care
Somebody care for me

And it's all I live for
The air I breathe
So it's all the same to me
Yeah, it's all the same to me

Eenie Meenie Miney Moe
Eyie Eyie Eyie Oh

Where you
Where you
Where you go
Well, it's all the same to me

Eenie Meenie Miney Moe
I won't holler, let me go

Don't you
Don't you
Don't you know
That it's all the same to me?

Somebody do
Somebody do
Somebody do you wrong
Don't let 'em kill
Don't let 'em kill
Don't let 'em kill your soul
So, I keep on shuffling on and on
'Cause it's all the same to me

I won't run
When the sky turns to flame
And I sure won't budge
When the earth does shake
When the flood comes up
I will dance in the rain
'Cause it's all the same to me

Eenie Meenie Miney Moe
Eyie Eyie Eyie Oh

Where you
Where you
Where you go
Well, it's all the same to me

Eenie Meenie Miney Moe
I won't holler, let me go

Don't you
Don't you
Don't you know
That it's all the same to me?

Somebody
Somebody
Somebody care for me
Somebody
Somebody
Somebody care for me

And it's all I live for
The air I breathe
So it's all the same to me
Yes, it's all the same to me
Well, it's all the same to me

Forever - FireFlight Lyrics

Damien Rice - I Remember

Obsession

Dance so Good - Wakey! Wakey!

Wakey! Wakey! finally has an official album out! (Almost everything I wish I'd said the last time I saw you...) That makes for 1 offical album, and 3 E.P. albums!

I figured I'd put up this song as they played it on One Tree Hill... Definitely check out Almost Everything!

Melody - Kate Earl

I spent my weekend driving all across the state of Utah. Naturally it was full of music, and thinking, and accepting of a lot of things going on around me.

I drove to Cedar City friday morning with my dear friend Marisa. She graduated from Southern Utah University, and I am so happy I was able to watch her participate in the graduation ceremony! I stopped to visit my twinbrotherIneverwantedbutloveanyway Chris. I met his fantastic girlfriend Stephy! I spent Friday night and Saturday morning with my darling Jo, where we shared so much! I love her and I am sooo happy we are family! I wouldn't have made it this far in life if it wasn't for her! After the graduation ceremony I went back to help Jo pack some of her things into my car. I had volunteered my boat sized lumina to her, and offered to drive her stuff to her. I was headed in that direction anyway. During my solitary drive to Kaysville I was able to think about everything that was going on in my life, from my dad and his current state of being as well as my current family situation, to my school and what I want out of life, etc. It was a really good time for me. I finished the night by driving to Logan to visit with a friend. The next morning I left around 7am, it was snowing in Logan (go figure... Ha!) but I found I didn't mind it. That funny little town has a comforting feel, and a gorgeous scenery. Driving back through the canyon was somewhat of a surreal experience. Logan was very green, the colors of every thing around held such depth! Slowly the world turned into a gray scale, it was sort of like walking into a black and white film after passing through one of Disneys Remastered films. It was so unique, and oddly pointed. I felt like I was watching Nature paint out my life. As the canyon walls picked up color again I finally reached a few conclusions, and made an important decision that will be seen within the next few months. I didn't go straight home. I stopped at the Jordan River Parkway, and took a little walk. I took a few pictures and let my ipod play on shuffle for a bit, while I enjoyed the color depth the rain had left.

On the drive home from the parkway this song came on. I really resonated with what she is saying, and cannot stop listening to it. I know I say this all the time, but this really fits me in this moment. I love that music is always there as an escape, and there is always, and will always be a song that sings out what my heart cannot, or will not say. I may not have my dad's ability to pull out the music in my head for everyone to share, but I at the very least am able to lose myself in the sound of my own melody.

No matter what has ever come to me
I got my own brand of company
I got da da da inside my head
And i play songs back to back until i got to bed

Wake up by myself inside an empty room
There's no body next to mine to oooh
But my skin is warm and my heart is full
It's the do do do do do do

Walking waking on a crowded street
With my headphones loud
So my hips can swing, so my head can nod
To the rock and roll to the boom boom beat

and i find that i'm never alone
and i find that my heart is my home
and the music within makes me whole
A world that i built on my own

and i know that i'm never alone
and i know that my heart is my home
Every missing piece of me
I can find in a melody

No matter what has ever come to me
I got my own kind of company
I got ba ba ba inside my head
And i sing songs back to back until i go to bed

There's a river in my mind that's never still
Swirling, soothing all the time gives me a thrill
Swimming in the notes that go
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Wandering, waking in an empty wood
It is quiet here, i am powerful
I look down below serenade the world
From inside my soul

and i find that i'm never alone
and i find that my heart is my home
and the music within makes me whole
A world that i built on my own

and i know that i'm never alone
and i know that my heart is my home
Every missing piece of me
I can find in a melody

When the walls begin to creep in
And the sky is fallin down
When i'm swallowed up in feelings
I get lost inside the sound...

Save Us - Cartel

I had a friend bring this song to my attention this past weekend. 

I fell in love with the piano in the background.

Simple words we never knew,
The power behind what they put us through,
Now it's all begun,
What it takes to make it real.
We're standing on the edge of this,
When our soul is gone what will we miss?
We lost what it takes to really, really feel.

And better days behind us now,
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
But who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.

We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent
Who we are, because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
Now we're left with, all we're left is memories.

But the better days behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
But who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, and can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.

Say the words, give it all the time you need.
Let it out, oh, just say anything.
Say the words and make them count,
Say the words without a doubt.
Give us truth and nothing more,
Leave us wanting more and more.

But who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save, can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
Can you save, can you save us?
I can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you say, you say, you'll save us?
And I can't go on, we're out of rhythm with our time.